| 2011 |
[Dec. 17th, 2011|05:17 pm] |
2011's not even over it, but I'm over it.
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That's it. 2011 can fuck off, mostly, but it has left me with some good stories. Thanks y'all! |
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| Epic soul-searching trip, part I |
[Nov. 19th, 2010|11:05 pm] |
I left on Wednesday for Seattle. Drove through Wisconsin, through Minnesota, then most of South Dakota. I hit a deer, but I was almost stopped when impact occurred, so no damage was done to car or deer. Spent the night in Rapid City.
So - side story. I have a Virgin Mobile android OS phone. Virgin uses the Sprint network, and does not roam. I had no cell signal for all of South Dakota, Wyoming, and Montana.
Anyway, yesterday morning I left Rapid City and drove to nearby Ellsworth AFB where I used to live. It's still an active functioning base, so I couldn't get on, but I did find my old school. I don't know what I was expecting, but I feel really let down by the whole experience.
Headed West from Rapid City into Wyoming, which was beautiful. I-90 curves North-West and it took me into Montana, where I encountered the most insane wind I've ever driven in. Absolutely insane. Almost had a truck and camper roll over on top of my car, but I narrowly avoided this. Waited with the driver of the then totaled truck, along with a second driver who smashed into the camper, for tow truck and state trooper to arrive. Finished out that day by getting lost in some crappy small Montana town. Snow was coming down pretty hard, so spent the night in a bad hotel in Bozeman, Montana.
My hotel room was haunted. Two times I woke up to find the large ceiling light ON, which then proceeded to turn itself off. Third time I woke up, the door of the mini-fridge was open. 4:30 AM and I hit the shower and got out fast. It had snowed all night, but as soon as I got out of the city, the roads were clear and all was good.
Finally made it to Seattle this evening. Traffic here is bad, but it's no worse than Dallas or Philly traffic. Had a great dinner, then good conversation, now updating my stuffs.
My sister feels that this is my Odyssey. Am I Gilgamesh? Doubtful.
Quick background... my job was bad, and was getting worse, so I quit. Cashed in my 401K, and now I'm on this trip. From here I'll hit Portland then head South to pick up a friend in Tucson, then hit Albuquerque to visit my folks, then... well, then I do not know.
I'll write more as it happens! |
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| Seattle |
[Nov. 15th, 2010|11:25 am] |
I'm gonna be in Seattle this coming weekend - getting there Thurs or Friday (depending on how fast/much I drive)
Anyone going to Robyn on Sunday night, or know where I can get a ticket? I saw her in Chicago this past Saturday and it was fucking fantastic!
Yay |
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| Hey! |
[Oct. 13th, 2010|02:45 pm] |
Hey! A post! I'm alive!
I decided that I needed some changes, and my job was making me incredibly miserable... so I asked to be laid off. I was told that they couldn't do that, so I gave notice of my resignation. My last day here (Metavante/FIS) is 10/22/2010.
I plan on taking a trip to Albuquerque to see my folks, and then up to Seattle for the wedding of a good friend/ex boyfriend.
I feel like I'm going a little crazy, but it will be amazing to just have a change of scenery for a bit, clear my head, music loud with windows down.
I came to a realization a few weeks ago, that I was brought up in an environment filled with worry, fear, and guilt. My mom is the MASTER of the 'What If?' game, and I need to just learn to take things as they come instead of fearing every possible outcome.
The future will be fine. The worst thing that can happen is either I end up living in my car, or I move to Albuquerque and pitch a tent in my parents back yard.
Feels like a ton of weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
:-) |
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[Mar. 17th, 2010|10:20 pm] |
Hey I'm alive!
2010 is a year for change, and it's also my Chinese Zodiac year too - I'm a Tiger! Growl.
I'm still working the same job, but my company was purchased by Fidelity so now I work at FIS. It's easier to stick with a job that I'm good at that I don't particularly love than it is to seek out something amazing. I'm convinced there's nothing amazing out there for me, at least not right now.
In my perfect scenario, I'd move to somewhere in the heart of Tornado Alley - Kansas City maybe - go back to College and work on a degree in Meteorology. Or Information Security. Husband won't do it though, and it takes money to make changes, and we have very little.
Had a fight with my health insurance company at the beginning of the year and they ended up not covering my Lyrica prescription. So, I stopped taking it. I had a few days of withdrawals, but I'm a bit clearer headed than I've been in YEARS. I've also started Acupuncture, and it's pretty amazing. My pain is completely manageable, although I'm still always tired and having problems with stress. Every day is a little bit better though. Just a wee bit.
I may be taking a trip to Louisville in June to spend the night at Waverly Hills Sanitorium hunting some ghosts. Should be spooky fun.
Other than that, semi-looking forward to Pridefest to see Kathy Griffin, playing a little Warcraft here and there, and trying to find motivation in everyday activities. |
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| A meme-taken from KYbearfuzz |
[Jan. 13th, 2010|07:13 am] |
A - Age: 35
B - Bed size: Queen
C - Chore you hate: Painting, if that's a chore.
D - Dad's name: Grant King
E - Essential start your day item: Shower
F - Favorite food: Pizza
G - Gold or Silver: Silver
H - Height: 6'2"
I - Instruments you play(ed): In order - Piano, Trumpet, Clarinet, all flavors of Saxophone, all other flavors of Clarinet, Tuba, Baritone, Oboe, Bassoon
J - Job title: Electronic Funds Delivery Support
K - Kid(s): 0
L - Living arrangements: Rent. It's complicated.
M - Mom's name: Mona
N - Nicknames: Doogie
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Tumor near my throat when I was very young, and Diabetic KetoAcidosis in 2007 or 2008.
P - Pet Peeves: Drivers who don't pay attention to where they're going. If you know you need to turn right, don't get in the right lane at the last second please.
Q - Quote from a brilliant person: "Destruction, hence, like creation, is one of Nature's mandates." - Marquis de Sade
R - Right or left handed: Right
S - Siblings: One older sister
T - Time you wake up: Anywhere from 5:30 AM to 9 AM depending on work schedule during the week. Much much later on weekends.
U- Underwear: Briefs or jock strap
V - Vegetable you dislike: Lima beans
W - Ways you run late: I'm rarely late
X - X-rays you've had: Head, mouth, chest, back
Y - Yummy food you make: Cookies!
Z - Zoo favorite: Meercats and Penguins |
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[Oct. 4th, 2009|07:38 pm] |
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Hey! My first post in quite a while!
I'm getting over a bad cold/flu/something that had me out of work this past Thursday and Friday. Tomorrow should be interesting.
I now work for Fidelity, as the 'merger' is complete as of 10/01/09 - Metavante RIP.
My body may be mad at me, but I went to Chicago last night to see Fever Ray in concert. It was the most intense/emotional/spooky/pagan concert I've ever seen. This was the first concert I've been to since I lived in Philly. I stepped way outside my comfort bubble to do this - drive to Chicago, go to a bar and not get smashed, hang out with not my usual crowd. Was completely amazing. Totally worth the upset stomach today :-)
I'm on some new meds for anxiety/depression/pain and so far so good! This could be the start of something great. My fingers are crossed.
Hoping to travel somewhere for Thanksgiving. Would love to see my parents - my dad offered to fly me to Albuquerque for a few days. May end up driving to see Dave's mom in Raleigh/Durham. I would probably get to see my sister if that happened. It's all up in the air for now.
It's Sunday night and I'm wiped. Gonna try to eat some dinner and then get some solid sleep.
Hope everyone is well! |
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| I'm alive |
[Aug. 3rd, 2009|04:47 pm] |
Haven't posted in a long time. I'm more active on Facebook these days. Not sure what the future holds, but I'm still here. My layer of happiness is being spread thinner and thinner and I need to force changes in my life, so now I'm in the process of figuring out what to change.
An Uncle of mine died a few weeks ago, so I went up to Green Bay for the funeral - it was more of a family reunion for me, and I tried to make the best of it.
Had a huge fight with a coworker and then a few days later her mom died. She hasn't been back to work since - next week maybe. I wonder if she's changed. She may still be a bitch, but with a dead mother.
If I become more adventurous, which I strongly desire to do, I'll post more, maybe some pictures too. |
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| Regrets |
[Apr. 27th, 2009|05:23 pm] |
Today is a day for contemplation and processing.
How do you deal with regret? I've never understood how someone could have no regret about anything in their life. I've got a few bridges that have been burned that I'd love to repair, but I also have regrets for MANY things in my past. How does one deal with this and move on?
I'm gonna spew for a bit here... so...
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